Did you know I am a miracle?
Did you know that everything in my life has been miraculous?
If not, I’d like to quickly tell you why.
Since I can remember, I’ve been told I was a miracle by my parents.
Not just a little miracle, but a HUGE miracle that has blessed them immeasurably. Yet, God didn’t stop with me, he just started the chain of events.
It was a miracle that my Mom and Dad experienced the same struggle with infertility as Jim and I. Because of that miracle, they decided to adopt before conceiving their own child.
It was a miracle that at that time, they decided to go with a Korean adoption. It was a miracle that they received news that a baby girl was now theirs.
My Mom and Dad may think that Ali was their miracle, but she wasn’t just theirs….I think God gave Ali to me. She is my miracle.
It was a miracle that my Dad decided to pick up his whole family and move across the country to California.
It was a miracle that my parents generously put me through college and let me graduate with zero debt.
It was a miracle that a certain young man walked into a certain sports bar on Halloween night and decided that I was the one he wanted to talk to.
It was a miracle that he called me three times to plan a date. It was a miracle that my hairstylist totally screwed up my hair, which caused me to dye it dark…which made me cancel a date with another guy who knew me…and take Jim up on his offer of dinner.
It was a miracle that every minute of our first date was amazing, and that he totally understood when I wanted to go home and change into a maroon-velvet-track-suite and go out again (if you know me well, you know that I HAVE to be comfortable and will change clothes at any moment).
It was a miracle that James Aaron Caramazza wanted me to be his wife.
It was a miracle that even after a very scary break-in and a heart wrenching fire that destroyed our home…we became stronger, happier, more content.
It was a miracle that Jim and I have struggled for the past six years to conceive…this gave us time with each other…just each other. We have had so much fun, excitement, journeys, vacations, night outs, parties….good times….amazingly good times!
It was a miracle that on a Sunday in February, 2010, my Mom called me and said that My Dad told her that he wanted to pay for us to go through IVF. I will never be able to pay them back for the gift they have given us. If it wasn’t for that call on that day…I would not be reading this.
It was a miracle that the fertility clinic I had been going to for five years had an opening in March to start our IVF cycle.
It was a miracle that everything in our IVF process went prefect…beyond perfect.
It was a miracle that our Dr. harvested 28 eggs, 17 fertilized and 12 embryos were perfect.
It was a miracle that on the implantation day, a lab technician chose 2 little embryos randomly…out of 12.
It was a miracle that after 7 days of bed rest and a wait that seemed like forever, the nurse called us and said YOU'RE PREGNANT.
It was a miracle that of those two eggs, 1 little embryo stuck just for us.
It was a miracle that after weeks of spotting, worrying and trying to stay calm….We heard the heartbeat of the little person now growing inside of me.
It was a miracle that after thinking my life would be filled with little girls, God gave me a little boy.
So, here we are… I’m reading this to my family and friends who are surrounding me during this amazing time before Vinny makes his miraculous appearance.
You all are my miracles as well. I find it amazing that God has blessed me with this family, with these friends, with this life. Every step I have made has brought miracles into my life.
I’ve always know I was a miracle, but until now, never realized how miraculous my life truly is.
Dear Vinny,
You are a miracle. You were chosen by God and given to us as a gift. I will never let a day go by without making sure you know how amazing you are, what a blessing you are, how miraculous your life is going to be. Every day of my life has prepared me to bring you into this world, and I will never forget how I felt the day I knew you were finally here.
You are my miracle, my heart and soul, my love…you are my sweet Vinny. I will love you always.
You and I, we are Miracles.
Love,
Mom
