No spotting and feeling GREAT!

I feel like it's been forever since I've posted something positive about this pregnancy...sorry about that. Yes, it's been a rocky road, but I'm finally starting to feel "normal" again.

It's been an entire week ON MY FEET and no spotting. I've been walking around, going to dinner, working a bit, cleaning up my house more and just living a somewhat normal existence now...WOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!

My new nurse practitioner gave me a great pep talk...

"You're fine. Baby is fine. You can't cause a miscarriage or prevent one. You are over 12 weeks and rarely does anything bad happen now. RELAX and get out of bed"

I love her!!!

My tummy is officially getting bigger (along with other areas of my body...need to lay off the junk food sister). It finally feels REAL...and I'm loving it!

Hanging in there...

Tomorrow I will be 12 weeks!! I can't believe we are only 2 weeks away from the 2nd trimester. I've still had spotting off and on the past six weeks, but every time we go to the Dr. to do an ultrasound, the baby is fine and they tell me to just go home and rest. So, I've been on bed rest off and on for the past six weeks. The frustrating part is that I will stop spotting for 5 days, get up for a bit...then spot again.

I went to the Dr. yesterday because the spotting lasted a little longer than normal and of course, baby looks good, Mama is a stress case. There is apparently a pocket of fluid (blood) near the sac of the baby that is causing the spotting - it's not a great thing, but it is pretty common. It's trying to heal itself, but with any activity or growth of baby, it starts to release and spot again.

I'm back on bed rest and trying to keep my spirits up, even though I'm a little stir-crazy and frustrated with the complications. I know God's plan is always good, but man-o-man, can I get a break!! I've gotten great encouragement and of course, I appreciate it...but sometimes you just want to say THIS SUCKS!!!!

So, THIS SUCKS!!! I feel better...

I will get through this and in the end, I promise to share my story and help anyone I can who is going through infertility (emotionally and financially). Someone recently told me that when I finally have this baby, I will hardly remember any of my infertility woes. I hope that never happens, I never want to forget!!! I want to help others who are going through the same thing and never ever ever ever make them feel like I'm above them for the IVF working and having a baby. Infertility is hard, really hard...and I empathize with anyone who has dealt or is dealing with it.

...stepping off soapbox now :-)

On the bright side...these t-shirts cracked me up!!!
*click on the picture to make it bigger*

10 Weeks and Resting

As of Thursday, I am 10 weeks pregnant. I can't believe it was two and a half months ago that we did our implantation, time does go by fast.

If you've followed my Blog and Facebook, you know that I have been struggling with spotting this entire pregnancy. There's good and bad to it. The good is, every time I go to the Dr. when I spot, the Baby is find and growing very fast. The bad is, he told me I have some bleeding around the sac of the baby and although it's normal and no cause for alarm, it's a warning to take it easy.

He compared the bleeding area to a scab...nice huh. If you pick at a scab, it will bleed, but if you just leave it to heal, it will heal up and fall off. So, the spotting is due to the area not healing yet and most likely due to me being too active. So, he believes that as long as I take it easy (couch/bed-rest), I should just heal up and have no issues in my 2nd trimester.

If you could say a little prayer for us, that the area heals and baby will be safe and sound to grow...I would really appreciate it.

God is always good and His plans for us are already written...now we just stand in faith.

Thanks for all of your support and love,

Jac (and Jim)

Wanted: Time Machine

I would like to find a Time Machine.

I would like to fast forward ten weeks and feel peace and joy.

I would like to be one of those women who doesn't worry about having a healthy pregnancy and it just turns out perfect.

I would like to find a Time Machine!!!

Obviously, my faith is shaken a bit. I'm spotting again...actually was spotting...it's pretty much done. I know many women go through this, but all the same, it's still very hard to stop thinking about the worse-case-scenario.

Man, FAITH Jaclyn...FAITH!!! I know God is in control and His ways are always good, but I'd really like to just skip all this and have our baby here!!

I'm going in for another ultrasound tomorrow, and of course, that will verify that everything is okay and we are still in the safe zone.

If you could, say a little prayer for me. Pray for a healthy pregnancy and that I "get out of my head" and stay in God's word....like the verse below.

Power Verses:

Philippians 4:6-7, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (NIV)

** This picture reminds me that I need to smile, trust God, and be happy **